Valentine

By: White_Pal
BLOG: http://gabbysjourneyofheart.blogspot.com/
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Welcome to the 2nd episode of GM's Diary. Sana po magustuhan niyo. :)

(Previous GM’s Diary Entry, Napoleones)

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“GM! GM! GM!” sigaw ng aking mga kaklase. Namumula ang aking mukha. I was so embarrassed.

“GM kanta na! Wag ka ng maarte. Gusto pinipilit pa eh.” sigaw ng mahadera kong kaklase. Everyone laughed.

Tumayo ako. Kasabay ng aking pagtayo ay siya ring pagwawala ng buong klase. Dumagundong sa apat na sulok ng kwartong iyon ang nakakabinging ingay, hampas sa lamesa, padyak ng mga paa, at sigaw nilang sagad sa lalamunan. Daig pa ang presong nakawala sa selda ang mga ito.

They’ve gone wild. Ganoon ba sila kaaliw sa akin?

Mabigat man ang paa’y nakayuko akong tumayo sa harap. Nagbigay ng isang malalim na hinga. My hands are trembling, sobrang bilis ng tibok ng aking puso, it’s like it’s going to stop because of over beating. As I looked the whole class, I felt shivers in my spine, my legs are shaking as if I’m going to collapsed. Muli akong yumuko. Hindi ko alam ang kakantahin ko.

Mag-iisang minuto na akong nakatayo sa harapan ngunit wala akong maisip na pwedeng kantahin. Then, I remember one person. This person taught me how to live in this chaotic world, he taught me how beautiful life can be in spite of everything. Lastly, he taught me what love is.

Pumikit ako. Nanginginig kong inangat ang mic at inumpisahan ang kantang nagsasabi tungkol sa pagmamahal ko para sa kanya. Nabalot ng katahimikan ang buong kwarto as I utter the first word of the song.

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you

If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams I couldn’t love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

Kasabay ng pagbigkas sa salitang valentine ay siya ring pagtulo ng aking luha. I gripped the mic tightly, binuhos ko dito ang gigil, galit, at lungkot na aking nararamdaman. The pain and loneliness is so much for me to take, naramdaman ko na lang ang bigat ng aking dibdib, parang anumang oras ay sasabog ito. I tried to calm and finish the song.

La da da
Da da da da

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cuz all i need
Is you, my valentine

You're all i need
My love, my valentine

Sa pagtatapos ng kanta, narinig ko ang masigabong palakpakan ng aking mga kaklase. I opened my eyes and gave them a smile. Ibayong saya ang aking naramdaman nang makita ang ngiti sa mukha ng mga ito.

I hope I satisfied them.

Bumalik ako sa aking upuan at nagpakawala ng isang buntong hininga. Muli ko siyang naalala. Ang kaisa-isang taong tumanggap at nagmahal sa akin ng totoo. Naramdaman ko na lang ang muling pagtulo ng aking luha.

Naisip ko ang lyrics ng kanta. It’s our theme song. Napangiti ako. Ngayon ko lang narealize ang totoong kahulugan ng kanta. Our song came to life. The song speaks about unconditional and selfless love. Even if the sun refused to shine for both of us, as well as his romantic feeling towards me is gone, despite everything… I still… Love him so much.

WAKAS
(Next GM’s Diary Entry, Instinct)